Has a Tumblr

   Its's going to be hard to come here and post. I might eliminate this blog, and transfer it over to the tumblr. Have not decided yet though. For now, if you are interested-Here is the linky love for that tumblr acct...
   All The Stars Are Mine    Enjoy!
   ~Amanda

*You*

*You*
The Curve of your lips
& the sway of your hips.

That small spot behind your ear;
It calls me to come near.

The glimmer in your eye
Shows me that you still want to try...

Its your gaze
That leaves me in a haze
A fog
A Bliss
It has me yearning for just
One more kiss. ~Amanda

Or.

Maybe I'm not deep

or smart

Maybe I'm not special

or pretty

Maybe I don't know as much as you

or maybe

You think I'm just not capable.

Don't take me for granted

Don't tread on me

Don't make the words from my mouth

seem cheap.

Maybe I need to look inside

Or

Maybe it's you, who needs to look

within.

Out With The Old

   New behaviors, new attitudes. New Things to come. Do I know what those things are? No. But life is rapidly no longer what it use to be, and trying to figure out its new role has been difficult. Everyone in my home is trying to adjust to the new flow of things. The kids aren't handling current events so well, but eventually we will achieve an even flow. Calm waters.
   School is about to start back up again. Schedules are good for kids. Repetition. It might be a saving grace for the family. I hope they don't lash out at school too much.
   Birthdays are also swiftly approaching. This time of year is dreadful and all mashed up for me. A series of events that span a 3 month time stamp. I get crazy overwhelmed with all projects in this time, and breathe a sigh of relief when the New Year arrives.
    It starts with the kids birthdays in Oct. and with the new babe-an addition for the beginning of Nov. too. I have a baby shower to attend and a Wedding both at the end of Sept. And Early Oct. Then planning for The lovely holidays commences. Thanksgiving is my favorite Holiday. I have never cooked a bird myself, but have become the side dish queen for both Turkey day and Christmas. It will be interesting to see how my role changes along with these holidays...
 
   Its hard to put my feelings to written word when i am unsure of just what my feelings are a lot of the time. I know along with all of this personally-perceived chaos, I have a broken unstable situation. Unsure of how to make it stable again and still accomplish all the goals that are needed to sustain a normal life for my kids. Needing to find a job, and look into going to school so i can do better for my kids.
   Time is flying by, but it doesn't seem that way when nothing in your life is moving as fast as time itself...

A Poem For Her

Sovereign Entity 

. 

I dreamt I 

could be yours 

I saw it in the stars  

A special place 

existing outside

the borders of

your normalcy  

 .

Not categorized

as one

or the other

  But as separate

. 

No rules

no boundaries

no black or white

but gray

  just peace

enjoyment

fulfillment

  Friends

lovers

both

.

 No confines

to what Our

Sovereign Entity

could be 

. 

~Amanda Clemm

DO YOU SEE THAT?!

   Do you SEE this piece of magnificence?! This ring?! It is my dream to own this ring. I have been drooling over it since the day i found it. Here she is in all her glory...

  
   It's me right?! You know it is...And this ring right there-Has dropped HALF price!!! And I STILL* can't buy it! Ya know with everything that is going on in my life, the last thing i could ever do was drop money on this little gem...but gosh i love to look at it! Maybe someday All The Little Stars will own the stars on this ring as well...till that day-i shall day dream about it regularly...

    @@@@@@@@@@@@

   In other news, Even though I get no readers but my lonesome-I think a Bot* found my blog last night-cuz i got an email from a company offering to send me their product if i will review it on my blog. Funny. Ah Well...It gave me immense amusement and a lil' chuckle.
  
   Yesterday was a calm peaceful day even though things didn't go as they should have. I can only do so much before the brick walls hold me back. Accomplishing things as I can...
   That's enough for today I think. Enjoy your day. Ima try to :)

WEEEEeeeeeeEEEEE

...Did you catch it?! That was me passing by on this friggin roller coaster Im on. I'd love to get off this ride, but that's the cowardly way out. Facing fears, no matter the heartache.

This Too Shall Pass.

The Top of The Mountain

   Some sad news trumps all other troubles yesterday & today. My heart goes out to a special friend and her family. Im always here for you when needed girl.

   ~Amanda

The Game Has Changed

   In so many ways. Life is never the same. My game has changed, and now have the components and key players.
   A member of the family has left the home. Leaving uncertainty and the unknown. People who go through troubles in life, ask the same thing often..."how much more can I possibly take on?". Will I make it through unscathed? Can the fragile package be delivered safely with no cracks & chips? I don't know the answer to any of these questions. I don't know where my life will settle, the lives of my children & their well being unknown.
   Being strong is no easy task. When you once thought you were, and you're called upon to summon up even more. The task seems daunting. "But have I not been strong all along?" Life's answer is undoubtedly "No."
    I know where i want to be. How to get there is the next question, when Im unsure of even just the roof over our heads. I need the happiest of times to pull me from these depths. For they might consume me if i did not have them.
   Just have to keep reminding myself, it's all for the better, and in the long run things will be fine. Can i make it to the long run? IDK....