Can't Imagine

   You just can't possibly Imagine how busy I have been! Personal family issues, among other things, have kept me from posting often. But I'll be back soon enough with stories of nothingness to rattle off im sure!

   Made some kick ass recipes last week. Found a Jar pasta sauce everyone enjoys-got the Old Man to eat leftovers.3.Nights.In.A.Row!
   
   Caio!

To the Anti-Babywearer

   **Copied & edited to fit blog perimeter from a comment i left on a forum i frequent**

   All a new mom wants to do is snuggle with her baby all day long. But the realities of life and its demands require that we function in life and leave our cozy nests.

   With the aid of any carrier deemed safe for a newborn-it allows us to snuggle our newborns all day long and still get the things done in life we need to get done.

   Addressing concerns of creating a clingy child: As the child grows, each child's clingy-ness is it own, and part of their personality. Not something the carrier enforced. And if you have a child that is active-you will start to see a decrease in the amount of time the child will let you "wear" him/her. If you child likes to be close, and the mother is willing-then a safe carrier can accommodate until toddler-hood.

   Whether you "Wear" you child or not-you will never escape the "Up" phase a lot of children go through.

   WIN/WIN in my book if you ask me :)

What Makes Her Happy

   Lately, my just-turned-4mo.-old is satisfied by nothing. Frustrating to say the least. I wear her most days at least once, so we can  be close. If she's having a tough day. But my schedule doesn't allow for it as often as i like. Like right now, she is very upset, and all i can do is hold her. Because we have to load up and go pick up her sister at school in 13 minutes.
   Even when she is hungry she is not happy to receive a bottle. Tired? No mere nap will do. She who rarely sleeps more than 30 minutes at a time. Toys? Seconds of pleasure before fussiness sets in.
   She seemed to have a schedule of her own, but now I am lost to her ways. Where once she slept through the night-waking once before the day begins-she now wakes almost every hour and has to be soothed back to sleep. Needing that middle-of-the-night-bottle long before she should, and wanting the day to begin before the sun because of it. I find myself pulling her into bed with myself just to get more than an hour of solid sleep.
   I'm sure it must just be a growth spurt. But it makes my heart ache. I am the one who makes her happy-but she is not.
   How does a mother reconcile with this-when it is her job? All I want is for my beautiful cheer filled baby to come back. Please let the cranky one return to her depths soon.

Oh yeah-and can you tell her to let me get in a shower now and then too?! I have to go out in public, and people are not seeing the real me anymore.

I have an Addiction.

   Hi. My name is Amanda, and I'm addicted to the Internet.

{Internet World}- "HI AMANDA"

   I Don't  have a 'real' addiction though. It is just ingrained in my daily doings. Just as im sure it is a part of most of yours as well.
   If I'm at home, and not actually doing anything, i.e. cleaning, cooking, playing- Im at my computer. It's my 'default' setting if you will. my spot. Just like any other spot in a home. The couch, or kitchen chair. A recliner maybe. Mine is my computer chair. and why  not surf some of my favorite places while I'm here right? Just as any one might pick up a TV remote, and start surfing their favorite channels. It's no worse, no better. OK, maybe better-because I'm exposing my self to more educational material than the TV can. Plus-I'm doing a shit load more READING than your average couch potato. And at least I'm not letting useless info poor into my mind the way television does.
   So I've decided that from now on, I won't let it bother me when an uninformed family member/ignoramus tries to make me look bad or guilty about the amount of time i spend on the computer. Or if I talk about something I "must have gotten off 'My Internet'" like it isn't valid or ascertainable information. In my own opinion, the Internet has far more believable information than you local news station does.
   I'm done defending myself. And I'm forgiving myself ahead of time for maybe being curt with above mentioned people should i hear their remarks again anytime soon. *Winks*

Tell me internet. What's something you're done feeling guilty about?

The Car Seat

   Im very sad to say-Travis is returning to work. Sad mostly for my infant-and having to spend her days in her car seat. I wish we didnt have to get in and out of the car so often everyday.
   On a slow day it's 4 times we get in and out of the car. 5.Days.A.Week. this does not include any extra appointments, or trips to stores...or even visiting around town to say, friends and family! That's just school drop offs and pick-ups! I cant wait till warmer weather and we can walk more often. I'll wear her then. In my baby carriers. Until then, I'm working on my arm muscles!
  
   So, as i mentioned-Travis going back to work. He spent the majority of February, and the first week of March-here at home. This has never happened in all the years he has worked for his current boss. So it was odd to say the least. But cool at the same time. We could each come and go as we pleased-knowing that someone was there to sit with the baby so she didnt have to bundle up for a measly insignificant trip. Taking turns getting the kids to and from school. It was nice sharing the duties.
 
   But now im back on my own again! The daily grind. Is it spring yet?!